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Heart Lifting Moment
By peace | August 5, 2008
These are spaghetti I had cooked for my children for dinner.
After cooking dinner, I went to the window. Standing at the window, I saw the two cute mynas at the roof. They were singing. Then there were aeroplane passing by. I began to think of my mother. When I was young, my mother pointed to me whenever she saw aeroplane. She would say,”See, aeroplane!” My mother taught me words.
Looking out of the windows, I saw more birds flying, yellow, black, small and big, flying singly and flying in groups. It was such a comfort —- it was the thought: The Lord is my comfort when I am down. I was so sad, sad over the matters of the aircon. How selfish Singapore Man can be and how Man can behave in so many faces at home, in public, in front of friends and in front of families.
I am very grateful that I have a good mother, a mother who sacrificed so much, who works very hard and who endures so much. Marrying him, it is a ‘mirror’. I get to appreciate my family more and I get to know what is a family.
I never envy other people who earn more, and I never want to be like other people. But CMK once told me, “…not to compare myself with other people…” He thought that I always compare… This is how people can perceive differently. You look at me, I look at you, but in our mind, we think of different things. They thought I was a proud person, snobbish and treated me with ‘cold shoulder’ (treating someone who was able to talk well better, able to curry favour them… scolded me and said,”how long have I taught you?” — when that was the first time, and I did not even know anything…)
That was how biased people were in this society. How people judges according to look and judges according to family background. The one staying in landed property was treated with higher priority and more respect — very obvious, but that is a fact…
Anyway, I learned. I seen their colours. CMK said,”What shall I write? …. Cannot get along with staff?” I said, “whatever!” Is it going to make any difference? No. There is no confidentiality. There is no structure, but biased and not respectable person I see. I remembered every bit of him, from the start till the end and everyone of them. There are good and bad in everyone of them, no one is perfect, but that is how people discriminate and judges…..
When nobody understand you, the Lord soothes my soul. I understand what is Lord now, and I understand what is God now, and I believe in the creator of heaven and earth, the one true God who gives Light to this world. Even though I had sinned, God is so merciful. At 7.30pm, the bird still remained there. It was how amazing the wonders of God. It seemed to say,”I will be with you.” Just like what Veron had said,”He dwells in you and you in him.” She was speaking of Jesus, our Lord, my Master. The sky was so special too. It was like a phoenix, with a long tail.
So I am very grateful, grateful that I have a great mother and a great family, my brothers and sisters are all united and helping one another. My family is blessed, my nation blessed.
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